zazajb | Lost inside of you - epilogue (Reply)

Title: Lost inside of you Epilogue
Author: zazajb
Rating: NC-17 overall, adult concepts, occasional language, M/M
Pairings/Characters: Jack/Ianto, Gwen/Rhys, Martha/Tom, The Doctor [10] Lois/Peter, John Hart
Spoilers - TW anything is possible - via memories, inc DW
Summary: Sequel to No place to hide and All the time we have. Sometimes I don't know where I end and he begins...

Previous chapters: http://zazajb.livejournal.com/6286.html

Disclaimer: I own none of the characters - just like to dabble with them from time to time
This is for the wonderful wise_n_witty who was there at the very start – little realising the monster she’d unleashed!

With thanks to the wonderful wykling for the awesome banner *hugs*

A/N And so we reach the end. I’m going to miss this, my companion for so long...it’s been fun and I hope you’ve enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing!

Epilogue

They lay in a tangle of limbs, breathing slowing to normal, the blissful warmth of the afterglow radiating through their bodies... Jack propped himself up on his elbow to gaze down at the man he’d almost lost for a third time.

“I couldn’t bear it...I thought you’d stop loving me if you knew the things I’d done...all those terrible things...everything I’d shared with John...I just kept going over and over them, looking for a way to reach you without having to admit what I was...in case you thought I was still that person...I never wanted you to see who I used to be...before you made me complete...”

Ianto’s eyes filled with tears as he felt the panic and loss as Jack had re-lived all the horrors of those memories. He reached up to cup his Captain’s face, brushing his thumb tenderly across his cheek. “I was lost...lost in a world that wasn’t mine – everywhere I looked I saw you and him, he was holding you, kissing you...laughing at me... I went to Nirvana to find us...” he choked back a sob, remembering, “...and he was there... he told me you’d gone and were never coming back...that I was only ever a part-time shag...a distraction...just like Owen always said...”

Jack leant down and crushed his mouth to the Welshman’s trembling lips, tears spilling down both their faces, hands raking over hot skin, desperation and hunger colliding with raw passion and need... Panting hard, they broke off for air, eyes boring into each other’s...

“Are you ready..?” Jack’s voice was thick with want

“Yes...” Ianto whispered, his heart beating fast, “always...I want to get lost inside of you...”

“You know I’ll always find you...timeless...”

“...and eternal, cariad...” sighing happily as his lips were claimed and he lost himself in the intoxicating sensation of everything that was Jack...

End

Requested coda - the neighbours finally get to meet each other!
http://zazajb.livejournal.com/29160.html

A/N Thank you for all your comments along the way and for the wonderful friends I've made as this story has grown...and grown from it's original planned 10 chapters!!! Guess that's what happens when you hand the plot over to your characters! I'm a little bereft now it's done so need something else to get my teeth into and I'm open to suggestions... *hugs* D xxx